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Whoo! It actually worked! Now, anyone who wants to use this, feel free ~ I hope once I complete this that it will look spiffy for us poor users who can't purchase a subscription yet! (I'll be adding on to that "Journal" too-- so stayed tune!)

Special thanks to: for the Brilliant Idea!!


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B E G I N N I N G (Winter Break!) ~ ~ [12/14/07]
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Dear my lovely Siblings,

I'm not much into writing a long update now ~ a little tired I am ~ and I know how annoying long updates can be for some of you-- especially those who have so many things to do at one time (poor souls... >_< .. ), so as of right now I will try to stay on just talking about some simple things that happened today and what to look for. [I'll update findings and all that good stuff soon though! ...I hope ~ If you allow me so]


...Today was my last day of finals. And, well... I was able to answer all the questions I needed to in order to complete the final. The International Relations class I'm in requires you to chose from 5 of the 10 questions listen and answer them completely. I found I only knew how to answer only five of them! --- Oh my ~ I completed in the last 15 minutes doing the best as I could. As usual, I forgot to add more of the detail that could have made my answers sound more fluid which I sort-of regret... so I guess that's not that good. In the end, I just hope I passed ~ My grades depend upon it and my other grades... _{What are my other grades for that matter? >.> I'm gonna go check soon.}. Other than that, school is completely, utterly, officially... OVER!



[You may skip this next section if you like]



What else... Oh yes! What to look for in the future ~ Hmm...

Firstly, I'll finish off those make-shift dA 'headers' (like the "Journal" thing at the top of this Journal) to actually show you how it's a nice alternative to CSS (okay, not really, but at least it looks better than just text--- which I still find...unfair >_> ). Since I know we're all poor here Including myself of course . Secondly, I had an idea towards using the "News" feature on dA for tutorials, explanations, observations and major discussions. Of course anything that goes into "News" will likely be a General discussion and not just something I'd write on my casual journal entry--- feelings, simple updates (unless otherwise major in in some important aspect). That way, you can favorite them in case you have need for reference. Okay, some of you may be thinking, "Hisaam (or Tsuki) you're not a writer!" or "You're full of s***". I know I know, I'm not something great, nor do I have that many skills at a good level, but I hope that by my action you might do the same, and in the end, we can all share and learn from each other and perhaps even... Better ourselves !


Gah! I already made it long enough! I'll end it here.

Take care all of you and may you have happy holidays! Ho-ho-ho!!

Sincerely,
Wholeheartedly,
~Hisaam


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F I N A L S (week) ~ ~ [12/10/07]
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Dear Siblings,

Let me first begin by thanking all of you, each and every one of you for taking time out for me in the recent update for your thoughts and venerable advice! It's helped me clear out this mess to a major degree and I feel more clear-minded and ready to make that additional decision to take. I'll update you all on that later, if you are alright with that -bows respectfully-


So, finals. Yes, those dreadful, sleepless nights of cramming and reviewing!
Today was my first set of finals. Actually, may I say today IS, since I still have 1 more final left-- Microeconomics. It's not per say a hard class, but moreover, a class useful and very conceptual, so you have to study hard and try to apply it in real life situations a lot-- and that can be time consuming. Luckily, it seems as if I have some understanding of the last 2 chapters that will be on the final. The final is: Last 4 chapters of the curriculum. That really isn't too hard (better than all chapters) as you may agree, but I didn't really study.... o__o... -pulls out book- and it'll be starting within the next hour and a half x__x.

Lesson learned: Procrastination is risky and sometimes fatal. Finish your work early and try to stay on top of things. Not only will you be organized, but you'll feel more at ease during the finals and have more, hopefully, of the material in your head for a long-while after the finals--- apply the concepts, don't just memorize!

I had my American Government final this morning. I am iffy in whether I did good or not... I need at least around an 80% or so to pass the class,...so I hope I have made it through . I stayed up until morning writing my terms too-- and only 1 hour of sleep v__v. I hope it pays off in the long-run, though I despise my procrastination. If I studied earlier, I could have been more confident and have more material in my head without so much doubt. Only God can help me right now >.> ~ Seriously. -points to lesson again-

So that's it for right now. I'll update once I complete my final ^o^ ~ If of course, you, oh dear siblings, oh dear readers, will be patient and accepting towards the addition to this already long journal entry

::EDIT:: {2nd Final complete!}:
So, I just completed my second final... >.>... I made sure to finish praying before getting to class. It was 50 questions long and I was done about 1/2 hour or so before the time ran out. It wasn't too bad, but wasn't that great either. I had some difficulties on several questions, and I only hope I could do well enough. ~ Whoot! 1 more final left and I'm free! And that's this Friday! (With a Book Review >.> )

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-bows respectfully again-

Thank you again for your patience and understanding,
I wish you all the best of luck on your exams and preparations for the holidays! Cheers!

Sincerely,
Wholeheartedly,
~Hisaam



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Dear siblings,

I don't have much to say right now, and so I'll probably update this more frankly when I come home from prayer eh... today, but... I can say for the most part, I am in deep comflict, deep lost in a decision I made yesterday. I will not talk about it right now for the words are all over the place... messy, confused, shattered in so many ways. My conscience and my darker side are at a fierce war of contemplation-- Should I have really said that--- did I really mean it? ..... Yes... you did one says and the other reminds me of morals and codes of honor I am supposed to protect and follow. I've been doing poorly with those things and I've shamed myself--I know that much. Now I feel lost in one way-- and in the other... self-lessly optimistic... that I may have done something right... or wrong! -- I cannot make up my mind--- I guess to someone you really cherish and love and care for it's not surprising when after running away--- you regret or get lost in contemplation to that one decision.

Right now I must find if what I did was really the best thing to do, facing the consequences I need to prepare for if it is, or must I try to in the most honorable way ask for forgiveness and try to make it up to her.

I have the habit to be altruistic sometimes extremely, but what can I do--? I don't want to inflict pain on her or anyone else ever again. They should not have to suffer! They deserve happiness-- they deserve love-- and compassion...

-bows respectfully-

Oh Spirit within me, what have I done--- was it the right thing?

Oh my siblings... don't worry too much about me. I'll get through this-- I must. I'm a major fool in so many ways--but I will correct myself ^_^! I pray... I pray may God forgive me, may you all find in your hearts to forgive me for all the pain I've caused you.

I don't think I'm very sane right now-- but I wish you all the best =]
I'll try to wake up tomorrow and get this taken care of. For all the love you all gave me and God's guidance always finds a way to guide this old fool.


May Peace and blessings be with you all <3,
Sincerely,
Wholeheartedly,
~Hisaam



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