<EDIT: Gah! I didn't know editing this journal entry would delete the skin -_-... I guess I'll wait for another opportunity someday>

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Love is the single element of this world

Good Afternoon, my dear siblings and friends,

How many of you observe Thanksgiving?
Don't you find it a really heartwarming day? I do, but you know what?
I find that everyday must be thanksgiving.
Why do we only get one day to give thanks? From what I have at home,
I've learned the importance of this affectionate word and the humility behind it.
We all know that we aren't alone in this world, and although we may have to leave this
world one day with the one-way ticket on the journey to another world,
why is it that we are on this world with everyone else? The answer is pretty complex,...
Or maybe it is simple to the other group of you all.

Okay, so what I think is this: We are all here to find a community and eventually find happiness. For that, we have to learn to live as family, give thanks, and establish proper manners and character. Too much have we all, including myself, forgotten this, and that is why we must turn back and be grateful; Give thanks to all and everyone for bearing with us. I guess that's what's really important right? We have a lot of people to thank, even if we may live tough lives. We are siblings and family in the end. ^_^

The Bubble-- this is a big issue that I think I'll try to work on sorting out these next couple of weeks, through the holidays. The Bubble? Oh, yes, what is it? It is simply put this air of uncomfort people put around themselves to seclude themselves in in order that no one comes near them that they 'don't know'. You all should know what I mean. It's contagious in much of the world today; You walk around outside, and, regardless if there is a community meeting, you just can't approach that person or persons: they give you either that 'eye' if you come closer to talk with them, or that body language of ignorance. In fact, they don't even bother smiling unless it's for odd reasons. That bubble-philosophy is totally counter productive-- it hurts people and alienates the harmonious feeling between people. Yet, people still don't realize they need to break out and socialize. Break out and form together around that person who feels the air of loneliness. We are all there to have fun and be happy right? Family should be this way right? But even so, even in families, when people aren't that close people put bubbles around themselves. And, my friends, that's no good is it? ~ If you see someone you don't know, see how they are doing and greet them, especially if there is a big gathering, celebration or not. That is good manners, morals, and an excellent quality that will bring you happiness in the end. Even if not, is this not what we dream of, read of, the beautiful dream? In order for that to come you must take that step out of the world of imagination and into the world of reality with a heartfilled smile. ~ So much to do, so little time.

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Aside from those plans and discussion,
school is almost over! I've just gone through my exams and so finals are all that are left. This Winter I will be working, but during that time, I will do my best to come back and post new, improved art works. Also... CGing? I think I should get most of my work CG'ed sometime... maybe this winter? Who knows... I guess we'll just have to wait.


Thank you everyone for bearing with me all these years. I'm also sorry for ever hurting you during those times. Please forgive me for those mistakes and allow me to make the time now a sky filled only of happiness and comfort for all of you and enjoy helping make you happy. Hehe, take care siblings and friends,

May Peace always be with you ~~

Hey everyone!


It really has been a long time since I've written on here... even more is that I haven't even updated nor uploaded anything new. I don't even know If I'll update work this summer but I can assure you I'll probably draw something this summer. If you want I could put it on my Photobucket account (because it might not be good enough to upload).

School last Spring went really good, I got a 3.5 GPA (the biggest GPA that wasn't during a summer). However, I think the only reason for that was all the hours I put in. I'm not smart. I'm just a hard worker when things need to get done

Currently I'm waiting on some internship opportunities for this summer. Hopefully I can gain experience and a little money for college this Fall. I have about a half almost saved up.

That pretty much sums up what happened since Spring.

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As another note, if any of you still want to read the rest of this journal, I'm pretty optimistic, but recently I noticed... that some people seem to not want to talk to me; actually, I think its more they want to avoid me for something I did. That's fine. But can I know the reason at least? I don't know what I said or what I did wrong to you guys, so can you tell me, by NOTE or email or even here out in the open? I don't mind. If it's really my fault you guys deserve an apology and I'll make amends in some way, and if you really want I guess we'll keep a distance if that makes it better for you. But again, can you please tell me? Ignoring me without giving me a chance to know will only make me guess at what it may be, and most likely it'll be a 100 times worse than what it probably is... I am very harsh in taking blame on myself for any action that may cause difficulty towards others.

So can you please consider it? ^^ Thank you!
I'll continue to be optimistic the best I can and do the right things.
To see people living happily is the only way I can be even remotely close to happiness.

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>>>> Deep Thoughts of the Child that dwells in my Heart ~~~~~
>>>>~~~~~~ May I find Guidance and Innocence ~~~~~~~
>>>>>>>>>~~~~ In a world that tars the Good ~~~~~~~~
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Bad Habits...Die...Hard. Seriously,... bad language, stupid addictions like smoking (not me of course but other people) or compulsively eating all are a pain to get rid off. I have heard from wise people that if you can control yourself sincerely for 40 days straight, the force of your addictions will go away... but I'm guessing you gotta be determined and focused all the way--- just like the phrase: If there is a will, there is a way...hmm...interesting. So my addictions: occasional bad language, some anger, compulsive eating (when stressed), acting emotionally need to be fixed. I need to be firm... like a Guardian protecting with dignity and honor, with a sword! Yeah!... I shall work towards that day! Protecting my family, my friends and everyone under justice, humility, compassion, and truth. How I'll pave the path is unknown but that is my newest goal in life. I pray for this success. I pray for your habits to go away and you reach the heights you've always dreamed of.

Finally, I came online (Meebo) today... and maybe my eyes and/or my perspective is deceiving me. A girl special to me was on...and just when I appeared online, to perhaps start a little conversation which I'd hope would end with her going to sleep, a few seconds later, she suddenly went offline. Coincidence? Probably, but sometimes...does it seem she's evading me, or am I reading to much into it. What does she actually feel about me? Was she joking at me the few days ago we spoke after months? Or was she actually telling me something...different?

There is little hope if she loves me, even if I love her, because we are in a situation impossible for peace: family-wise, beliefs-wise (religion), although we seem similar in our passion and compassion with the world and the beauties that lie within it, and the problems yet to be solved. Even if she were to convert in the 2 years time, it may just as well end the same way as with her, the pure evidence, aside from so many family evidence that it's better to marry someone with more experience in the religion to ensure a truthful follower in the path of righteousness one chooses to follow. She is the only one left in my heart who makes me more hesitant to accept another women for marriage (though I will force myself if I must without hesitation) in the future. She is the only women I still ask and ask myself again... the "What if?". Too shy to tell my family from the disadvantage, and the border of defense--- this Internet, my only source of communication with her--- because I cannot figure out a way to meet with her which will not pain her and her family (I always consider that) and because I don't have permission I suppose, it all looks...bad.

She made me shake nervously and almost cry when she said that maybe I'd have to be her prince on a white horse. I don't understand. I still can't figure which path I must take. Must I say Good Bye as I've initially planned, what will it's consequences do, or should I say it another way, OR, should I keep the door open for her even when the chances of success being almost none, including her loving me.... Heh... I even made a project for her when we first met, and it's not even complete yet. When it does, a new step must await as well.

Sometimes, I question if I'll ever get married... for sometimes, I criticize that I should be alone as punishment for past wrongs or something. I just want to be a Guardian and see people grow up happily and safe. That seems to be my duty in this world and should end as being a Protector. Lot's of work to be done...

Thanks for those who've been reading my journals, I appreciate it, a lot, and I hope my constant philosophizing and over-elaborate details don't leave you hanging.

Take care, and may peace and blessings always be with you, your family and peers. Do good always, and follow the right path with sincerity.

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~~~~~~~~DECLARATION OF GUARDIANSHIP~~~~~~~
>>>>>>~~~ I vow to live my life a Guardian of Good ~~~~~
>>>~~ Protect the Innocent and encourage Innocence~~~~~~
>>>~ Follow the Five Pillars in Honor, Humility and Dignity~
>>~ Destroy all wrong habits, encourage all good habits~~~~~
>> Support those in need with all my skills and money~~~~~~~
>>>~ Passing and walking the message in all aspects~~~~~~
>>>>>>>>>~~~~ I give up my life in this path~~~~~
>>>>>>>>>>>>>~~ My life unimportant~~~~
>>>>~ But to serve righteousness without a care of death~~~
>>>>>>>>~~~ I sign this contract with my Heart ~~~~
>>>>>>>>>>>>~~~ I am Hisaam Hashim ~~~~
>>>>>>>>>>>>~~~ Guardian with my Life ~~~

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||>> School Returns >>||
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Good Evening, Everyone

So it seems, Education comes first, a good moral for children and adults alike... but how is it that so many despise the topic of 'school', as if it's a dreadful cage out to sip the enjoyment out of you? According to such a philosophy it can be none other than the aspect that...well, when you just begin to get comfortable, going back to school and adjusting study habits becomes a pain, and you just wish you had just a few more days.... That is just how I feel, for if lady luck hadn't come to me at this time, I wouldn't even know I have school starting this Thursday...O__O, only to discover by next week all classes would be dropped... yikes! But lo, and behold!, the moral of this story should delve into some optimism: At least now I won't have to find something to do, and I'll be learning new stuff as well; Which is always good. Yet still, only one more day left... I guess I'll get everything packed up and ready, THEN chill out with the family, forgetting the long-day ahead of me with the schedule I chose with college... (Should I even post it up here?)

As a note of advise for everyone in college or any other educational institution: Prepare beforehand! Keep some books with you during the holidays and review, because believe me, it's better to study during your holidays then becoming overwhelmed and doing bad during the beginning of the semester. We should always try to save our mistakes until the end... or... the beginning, whichever you prefer... but I like getting a little lazy towards the end to study and stuff and also get leisure time for myself. Stress = Mortal Enemy...

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||>> Back From India >>||
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I am back officially from India--- been back since the 15th of January but apparently a bit too lazy to write a journal until now. Ironically, I should write more journals for records of the past and for memories and thoughts to be preserved for my family, but I find myself speechless in what to write... does that sound weird to any of you guys?

Anyways, India went well, it's a different world than American in many aspects. But most importantly, I'd say the close-communities, inflated population, water and electricity shortages, pollution, and the unique style of bargaining really make India stand out. Other than the language relationship between my original mothertongue, the down-to-earth, determined nature present amongst some of the Indians are so uplifting, and makes you feel at home. If you can evade the gossip-factor which seems to exist more if you have big families there and plan for future marriages, it's a nice place to chill out. When you return home, I'm sure you'll come home learning a thing or two that will better yourselves ^_^

Final Thoughts will be in a separate journal, for your convenience.

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HAPPY HoLiDaYs
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Dear Readers,

Happy Holidays from Hisaam and his family! Again, whether anyone prefers to call me by a nickname I don't mind, but I do indeed rather prefer the honorable name bestowed upon me by my family. ^^ ~ Anyways, been a few months since a journal update eh? Yup, I've been answering messages and actually commenting on a few deviations during the past months, to show that I am ironically still active here. I have a few things to say, without the desire of wasting your time, but it's your preference if you'd like to read that. For the main course of this journal, I do suggest you read the rest of this paragraph while you're here because there's some information on progress that's going on with my work and such, which I suppose you'd be interested in. So let's cut to the chase after these few words: How're you guys? What's been on top of your mind lately, any distresses and difficulties one wants to discuss? Any thing in need of assistance which I may be able to help with? Feel free to ask, for that is partially why I'm here on dA as well, or wish to be so as not to seem so useless aside from uploading art. [joking ^_^]. So....Happy Holidays!

P.S
Please Support and ~ They need lots of love and people to give them some feedback ^^ You won't be disappointed! so go, go go!

P.S P.S
Unfortunately I've deleted all my Deviations a few days before this journal because it became almost impossible for me to see and comment on all of the very old deviations. However, I am still looking at the recent deviations and checking up on the previous deviations of my watchers and those whom I am watching, k? ^_^

So far, as this update is, I've also deleted some of the 1000+ journals from the past too and recently started over. I hope you all forgive me for that as well... >_< I promise to try to keep up with you guys this time

And... so I have: 61 Deviations 4 Messages 0 Notes
Do send me a note or two if you're bored or something's bothering you. Good way to start conversation ne?

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Progress Report
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~~[If I'm forgetting someone please note me because I know I am]

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EID MUBARAK from Eid-Al-Adha
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I know it's late to say it to my Muslim Brothers and Sisters on here, but Eid Mubarak! I was actually thinking of updating when it was Eid, but I just had my hands tied with stuff like school and all. School is over for me this semester. I finished my finals this week, and from what I've seen so far I have passed my classes! Whoot! Other than that, Celebrating Eid was nice. We had a few relatives over and we ate a wonderful meal. I really enjoy having guests over and a lot of people around to talk to and just have them there. One of the lessons of Eid I think, is that we should never forget to thank or creator and sustainer of this world, which I sincerely believe and call as Allah (SWT) the God of us all (If anyone wants to talk about this important subject, please note me or so ^_^). Nonetheless it is to be grateful for what we have, and that our hardships will be rewarded. When you give up everything for the right thing, you will be rewarded, one way or another. If any of you are confused what Eid-Al-Adha is or would like to learn more about Islam, go here: [link] (Though this is just about Eid in general you can search around the website). So anyways, Late Eid Mubarak to you all! And I hope peace and blessings to everyone on here and around the globe!

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Wedding in INDIA
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I'm leaving to India on the 22nd of December, 2008.
We are going to attend the Wedding Celebration of my little sister Hana (20 years old) who has just been married to Asif. They've already made their marriage contract in India a couple of months ago, and this is something new to me. I'm gonna go there and see so many new family members and spend as much as I can with the whole family. We'll be staying there for approximately 2-3 weeks, so I probably will be less active on dA or not active at all for that time if I'm really busy. This trip is very significant because after this I won't see my little sister for a while, because she wants to stay in India with her husband, and maybe that's actually better for their children when they have some. If some of you are finding the marriage age odd, it is important to note that there really isn't a specific age for marriage except after one has psychological and physical maturity. Now that might come at 16, 18, 20, or higher. It shouldn't matter, unless there is something fishy. Again, the provisions of marriage of consent and maturity should ALWAYS remain, and for my sister who is very intelligent and certainly matured into a young woman, her marriage is not so alien, I believe. Nonetheless, I'm both excited and sad about this trip. But some of those details are minor, so no need for anyone to worry, if anyone actually cares.

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Fate/Stay Night Visual Novel
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So, I've recently discovered that Mirror-Moon has released a complete translation patch for the long-awaited visual game, Fate/Stay Night. There is also a very simplified censored-patch for those like me who don't like bad scenes like what exists in that game, but you'll have to venture into the forums for that. You can purchase the game from Type-Moon from specific online retailers and I highly recommend that you do. I've just got into the story with my little brother and sister and have already completed the first scenario: Fate, with the Tru-Ending. We're almost complete with Unlimited Blade Works (Day 10/15) and are thinking of completing Heavens Feel after we return from India. This just comes to show that it's an amazing game, with a deep interactive story and moving music. Think of Visual Novels as books with pictures, animation and music. No, it's not Anime, nor Manga, but a hybrid that's more bent on the structure of a novel with choices. Be careful though as I've said this is an 18+ game. Even with the censored patch there is some language here, but it may be overlooked in some way.

So! Go out and Buy that game and get the translation patch! You won't be disappointed!

Translation Patch: [link]

P.S ~ If you can't afford the game... you can always sneak a torrent download... but I didn't just say that.

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